Thank you Anne, I also appreciate the warmth in your response. Your story resonates with me and I'm glad you took the time to respond! The good news is I've been in therapy for the past 10 years and this is not the beginning - but the silent weeping is still a process and shows we are never fully complete. I will have a therapist mentor me in the client hours required to obtain the Ontario designation. I need to find a way to get through those hours somehow and this is where your kind suggestions come in.